Friday 8 June 2012

You Make Me Smile


I can’t believe the way you actually make me feel,
You make me so happy that I can’t believe it is real,
All the times when we talk you make me have a huge smile,
When we stop talking I still think of you for a long long while,

I wish we could get closer because you make me feel great,
You make me smile early in the day and until it gets late,
It’s the things you say to me and the special looks on your face,
Since you make me so happy I have put you in a very special place,

That place is my heart and there you will always be known,
I can’t wait until I talk to you on communicator, skype or the phone,
You can make me smile from the way you walk or stand,
It’s the little things you do; I don’t know if you really understand,

You are so sweet and beautiful I don’t believe your real,
I have to thank you for it all and that’s how you make me feel!
You'r funny and charming, but not so kind to me
But you'r amazing and awesome, just as great as great can be

You have that smile so sweet, charming & adorable that it is
so cunning and perfect, yet it fills me with such a bliss
Your eyes give me a sense of tranquility, when you look my way
Butterfly's in my stomach they fly, without knowing what to say

We're completely different but take me off my feet you do
You make me reach for the stars and you make me smile too
They say opposites attract, now i completely can relate
But you know what hurts me, and you silently used them to show me to the gate

I've never stopped admiring the smile that you carry
Makes me forget all my pains, like a cup of cream with a cherry
All I can say is that you have made me think & feel more responsible
Yet I'd like to maintain the distance, Stand apart & enjoy the smile wiz admirable


Tuesday 5 June 2012

Breakup

When we broke up, man I went crazy,
confused, sad, and sometimes even lazy
I listened to someone who is my “Closest” friend.
So I made our relationship come to an end.

I've apologized and apologized and you don't seem to care.
So now without you I feel so bare.
I've wrote notes and called on the phone
But at the end of the day I'm still all alone.

You don't realize how bad I'm hurting.
Especially when all the guys come around flirting!
You're the one for me I know in my heart.
I feel so empty when we are apart.

You haven't talked to me in what seems like forever.
Oh how I wish we were back together.
I've tried and tried to get you back.
You were the one to keep me on track.

I know what I did was really wrong.
But PLEASE give me another chance it's been so long!!
You have my heart locked by a chain
And the farther you walk the harder the pain.
Baby, I have paid a price and I will also pay a fee.
If only you ever decide to come back to ME!!!

Wednesday 7 March 2012

DayDreaming

 
Lately I've been accused of "obsessing" about a pesky financial problem. Not a gigantic problem, but a source of ongoing irritation and minor conflict. At any rate, this financial quandary got into my mind, and I found myself waking up thinking about it, thinking about it while auto-piloting through my morning get-ready-for-work routine, and defaulting to it during random periods of mind wandering. It's common to default to thoughts that carry the most emotional punch, and this one was pulling anger triggers.
Now it's not really fun to stew on things that make you angry or that fall into the problem category but if it doesn't slip overboard into the OCD compartment, then it does serve a purpose. In this case, I got my "aha" moment in the shower. In fact the solution was so embarrassingly obvious that I'm amazed I didn't see it before. But that's what happens when your mind is locked in tunnel vision when trying to brainstorm solutions. It doesn't have full-range access to your memory banks where all kinds of information resides. Think of these snippets of memory and knowledge as long-forgotten documents stored on the Z drive of your computer. You may not remember what's there or where you saved it, but that info stills exists and a good computer program can find it.Bottom of Form
Well, your mind-wandering capacity is like that computer program--it can get to solutions that your conscious mind just can't see.
A 2009 University of British Columbia study confirmed that while daydreaming, the brain recruits complex regions of the brain, including the "executive network," which is associated with complex problem solving and which, as the "executive" moniker indicates, is the command center of the brain. Prior to this study, it was thought that the executive network was the exclusive problem-solving region and that mind wandering and daydreaming did not involve the "executive network." But this study debunked that theory."This is a surprising finding, that these two brain networks are activated in parallel," said the study's lead researcher Kalina Christoff. "Until now, scientists have thought they operated on an either-or basis--when one was activated, the other was thought to be dormant."
My particular answer cropped up after a significant amount of research and study, so it didn't magically appear out of the blue. It was a culmination of work I'd been doing. I was just able to suddenly see the answer, which appeared like a snapshot image in my mind. Sort of like House receives his moment of insight in the TV show of the same name.
My little moment was just that--fairly insignificant. But there's a lot of anecdotal evidence, especially in the field of science, in which scientists after long periods of toil were finally rewarded with Eureka moments: Henri Poincare gained his key insight into Fuchsian functions (a theory of geometry) while boarding a bus. Friedrich Kekule suddenly understood the structure of a benzene moleclue while watching the curling smoke rings of a fire. I'm sure friends and relatives thought they were "obsessed," and maybe they were, but that's also how they got their answers: working on a problem, stewing on it, and then seeing the light in an unexpected moment. This kind of lost-in-thought thinking is where we get the term "absent minded." A misnomer as the person isn't absent from his or her mind, but deeply within it.
Obsessing about life's mundane problems is not as fun as obsessing about the novel you want to write or a scientific breakthrough or the details of a great vacation. But it can pay off in big ways and in small. Sometimes you have to put a problem on your priority list, let it take over a bit, and trust that the answer will bubble up when you least expect it.

Tuesday 3 January 2012

I"M NOT A ROBO!!

You tell me you still love me,
Yet, you set me free.
You said you'd give another shot.
Was that a lie or simply you forgot?

I truthfully set you above all,
For you were the suitor that stood tall.
Or was I suppose to lead you on,
In order for you to stay, so you'd have won?

Please tell me this is all a bad dream,
Not only were we such a great couple, but a team.
We've been through so many rough rides,
So for now, can't we set away our prides?

Those times we walked hand in hand,
You once promised we'll cross together on any land.
Those breathtaking kisses,
Were they only heavenly made with reminisces?

How can your feelings fade away within a couple of days?
It is impossible in so many ways.
Yet, what struck me the most is her.
Though, I'm still mystified if it's me or her you prefer.

I got my hopes up way too high,
Thought you'd change if I gave another try.
Yes, I'm now the pathetic one,
But you're successful in making me the fool for getting outrun.

While I'm the moron to be taken to the tree,
But I thank you for setting ur mind free.
For I don't have to worry if you're still confused,
Though, I want you to know that I feel like I've not yet been used.

You tell me to move on or let go,
And expect me to go with the flow.
How can I do so not knowing why you've given up too fast?
You're certain now, but don't you dream about our past?

I'm certain I have a huge role in this twisted story,
So why can't I just take the prize with glory,
Instead of making a rerun to shove it in my face?
I find it quite low standard because my girl still doesn't know her place.

A poisonous serpent is in my head indeed,
Yet, you still can't see that i'm left me to bleed.
You told me, "This was meant for the your best",
But who could have guessed that you'd make me feel oppressed?

This excruciating pain is too much to take in,
Perplexing me in each way is like to put me on a spin.
I've cared for you, yet you surely cranked up on me,
But no matter what happens, I'll keep my head up and never flee.