My Brother, My Friend

Dedicated to my little brother and my friend. 
A few verses of love, I'd just like to send.
I always enjoy, spending time with you. 
In so many ways, together we grew.

We share a close bond, and a very strong link. 
We openly express, whatever we think.
Just want to thank you, for all you have done. 
You've always been irritating, hilarious and fun.

You're one of those people, that is genuinely nice 
You probably always are willing, to take my advice.
My life has been blessed, with a brother like you. 
With you by my side, life's easier to chew!

Through fallen decades, aggrieved heart sustained
I found my calling, forgot I was pained
Just when the going got peaceful and nothing was boring
Gales of torture, and tears started pouring

We've grown together, but very slowly apart,
But you will always been in my heart.
From a distance I will still watch over you grow,
Wondering about the man I'd get to know.

Even though you have it, don't grow up in a hurry.
You’re going to be somebody, this I already know.
But there's a lot to learn, what you have will help you grow.
Keep your eyes open don't let anything pass you by.

Good choices you've made all together,
I'm so glad you didn't pay attention little brother.
So many things going on around you,
I'm so thankful it didn't drag you in too.

A few lines of rhymes, is what I have picked
To try and tell you how much you will be missed
An excellent future is what you have chosen
Enjoy every second you are there to make it golden

I'm always here as whatever you want
Please don't keep any feelings that might give you a haunt.
A call or a message away is all that I always will be,
Just make a wish & it being fulfilled is what you will see.

I am forced to move on

A lonely day it was when I thought of taking a stroll

With my mind stuck with questions, about what on Earth was my role

A big question mark is all that could be seen on my face

With a feeling that the entire world was just overtaking me at a might pace

I looked towards the clouds today, and for a moment saw your face

And wondered just were you have gone, with a hope it's a better place

Did you try contacting me to me today, to tell me you're alright?

Or was it just a daydream, playing tricks upon my sight

Then I thought of the time you left, and didnt say a word

No hugs, no kisses, nor the torturous good-bye was heard!

You have changed our lives forever, your time here is  not in vain

And hope you know I always tried, to keep you safe from pain

We will always feel the void inside, because you are not here

But each new thought you send our way, let's us know you're always near

So until our journey nears it's end, and we hear the angels sing

We'll face each new day as it comes, and live off the love you bring

I want to run, I want to hide.

From all the pain you have caused inside.

I want to scream, I want to cry.

Why can't I just say, Goodbye??

I want to move on, but I just can't let go.

I love you more than you will ever know.

I want to start over, I want to feel free!

But this pain never seems to let me be.

You have hurt me bad, the pain is deep.

From all the promises you made & couldn't keep.

All the lies, I heard you say.

Are in my head and it just won't fade.

Its only now that I realize that you're gone

I'm stranded & goal-less, So I'm moving on

All I ask you to do, is not to hold me back

Cos after ages I feel, I'm finally ready to pack.

So, with all said & done I'm saying good-bye,

Just agree to disagree & Please don't ask why!

I loved you sincerely, but now I'm over you,

I had loved you, I still love you, I promise I always will do.

You Make Me Smile

I can’t believe the way you actually make me feel,
You make me so happy that I can’t believe it is real,
All the times when we talk you make me have a huge smile,
When we stop talking I still think of you for a long long while,

I wish we could get closer because you make me feel great,
You make me smile early in the day and until it gets late,
It’s the things you say to me and the special looks on your face,
Since you make me so happy I have put you in a very special place,

That place is my heart and there you will always be known,
I can’t wait until I talk to you on communicator, skype or the phone,
You can make me smile from the way you walk or stand,
It’s the little things you do; I don’t know if you really understand,

You are so sweet and beautiful I don’t believe your real,
I have to thank you for it all and that’s how you make me feel!
You'r funny and charming, but not so kind to me
But you'r amazing and awesome, just as great as great can be

You have that smile so sweet, charming & adorable that it is
so cunning and perfect, yet it fills me with such a bliss
Your eyes give me a sense of tranquility, when you look my way
Butterfly's in my stomach they fly, without knowing what to say

We're completely different but take me off my feet you do
You make me reach for the stars and you make me smile too
They say opposites attract, now i completely can relate
But you know what hurts me, and you silently used them to show me to the gate

I've never stopped admiring the smile that you carry
Makes me forget all my pains, like a cup of cream with a cherry
All I can say is that you have made me think & feel more responsible
Yet I'd like to maintain the distance, Stand apart & enjoy the smile wiz admirable

Breakup

When we broke up, man I went crazy,
confused, sad, and sometimes even lazy
I listened to someone who is my “Closest” friend.

So I made our relationship come to an end.

I've apologized and apologized and you don't seem to care.

So now without you I feel so bare.
I've wrote notes and called on the phone

But at the end of the day I'm still all alone.

You don't realize how bad I'm hurting.
Especially when all the guys come around flirting!

You're the one for me I know in my heart.

I feel so empty when we are apart.

You haven't talked to me in what seems like forever.

Oh how I wish we were back together.

I've tried and tried to get you back.

You were the one to keep me on track.

I know what I did was really wrong.
But PLEASE give me another chance it's been so long!!
You have my heart locked by a chain
And the farther you walk the harder the pain.

Baby, I have paid a price and I will also pay a fee.

If only you ever decide to come back to ME!!!

DayDreaming

 

Lately I've been accused of "obsessing" about a pesky financial problem. Not a gigantic problem, but a source of ongoing irritation and minor conflict. At any rate, this financial quandary got into my mind, and I found myself waking up thinking about it, thinking about it while auto-piloting through my morning get-ready-for-work routine, and defaulting to it during random periods of mind wandering. It's common to default to thoughts that carry the most emotional punch, and this one was pulling anger triggers.

Now it's not really fun to stew on things that make you angry or that fall into the problem category but if it doesn't slip overboard into the OCD compartment, then it does serve a purpose. In this case, I got my "aha" moment in the shower. In fact the solution was so embarrassingly obvious that I'm amazed I didn't see it before. But that's what happens when your mind is locked in tunnel vision when trying to brainstorm solutions. It doesn't have full-range access to your memory banks where all kinds of information resides. Think of these snippets of memory and knowledge as long-forgotten documents stored on the Z drive of your computer. You may not remember what's there or where you saved it, but that info stills exists and a good computer program can find it.Bottom of Form

Well, your mind-wandering capacity is like that computer program--it can get to solutions that your conscious mind just can't see.

A 2009 University of British Columbia study confirmed that while daydreaming, the brain recruits complex regions of the brain, including the "executive network," which is associated with complex problem solving and which, as the "executive" moniker indicates, is the command center of the brain. Prior to this study, it was thought that the executive network was the exclusive problem-solving region and that mind wandering and daydreaming did not involve the "executive network." But this study debunked that theory."This is a surprising finding, that these two brain networks are activated in parallel," said the study's lead researcher Kalina Christoff. "Until now, scientists have thought they operated on an either-or basis--when one was activated, the other was thought to be dormant."

My particular answer cropped up after a significant amount of research and study, so it didn't magically appear out of the blue. It was a culmination of work I'd been doing. I was just able to suddenly see the answer, which appeared like a snapshot image in my mind. Sort of like House receives his moment of insight in the TV show of the same name.

My little moment was just that--fairly insignificant. But there's a lot of anecdotal evidence, especially in the field of science, in which scientists after long periods of toil were finally rewarded with Eureka moments: Henri Poincare gained his key insight into Fuchsian functions (a theory of geometry) while boarding a bus. Friedrich Kekule suddenly understood the structure of a benzene moleclue while watching the curling smoke rings of a fire. I'm sure friends and relatives thought they were "obsessed," and maybe they were, but that's also how they got their answers: working on a problem, stewing on it, and then seeing the light in an unexpected moment. This kind of lost-in-thought thinking is where we get the term "absent minded." A misnomer as the person isn't absent from his or her mind, but deeply within it.

Obsessing about life's mundane problems is not as fun as obsessing about the novel you want to write or a scientific breakthrough or the details of a great vacation. But it can pay off in big ways and in small. Sometimes you have to put a problem on your priority list, let it take over a bit, and trust that the answer will bubble up when you least expect it.

I"M NOT A ROBO!!

You tell me you still love me,
Yet, you set me free.
You said you'd give another shot.
Was that a lie or simply you forgot?

I truthfully set you above all,
For you were the suitor that stood tall.
Or was I suppose to lead you on,
In order for you to stay, so you'd have won?

Please tell me this is all a bad dream,
Not only were we such a great couple, but a team.
We've been through so many rough rides,
So for now, can't we set away our prides?

Those times we walked hand in hand,
You once promised we'll cross together on any land.
Those breathtaking kisses,
Were they only heavenly made with reminisces?

How can your feelings fade away within a couple of days?
It is impossible in so many ways.
Yet, what struck me the most is her.
Though, I'm still mystified if it's me or her you prefer.

I got my hopes up way too high,
Thought you'd change if I gave another try.
Yes, I'm now the pathetic one,
But you're successful in making me the fool for getting outrun.

While I'm the moron to be taken to the tree,
But I thank you for setting ur mind free.
For I don't have to worry if you're still confused,
Though, I want you to know that I feel like I've not yet been used.

You tell me to move on or let go,
And expect me to go with the flow.
How can I do so not knowing why you've given up too fast?
You're certain now, but don't you dream about our past?

I'm certain I have a huge role in this twisted story,
So why can't I just take the prize with glory,
Instead of making a rerun to shove it in my face?
I find it quite low standard because my girl still doesn't know her place.

A poisonous serpent is in my head indeed,
Yet, you still can't see that i'm left me to bleed.
You told me, "This was meant for the your best",
But who could have guessed that you'd make me feel oppressed?

This excruciating pain is too much to take in,
Perplexing me in each way is like to put me on a spin.
I've cared for you, yet you surely cranked up on me,
But no matter what happens, I'll keep my head up and never flee.

I AM HUNGRY!!

Come fast, before I kick ur butt

My hunger’s ruling my senses, my tummy’s takin a cut

In 15 mins, I'll be so glad.
Lunch is waiting, to be had.
I'm so hungry, I need food.
For a meal, I'm in the mood.
I can't wait 1 minute more.
I'm going to head, to the door.
Try and stop me, see what happens.
If you step, we'll be scrapping.
Then I'll have ur lunch too,
And what the hell, are you going to do?
I suppose you'll starve or maybe just whine.
It doesn't matter your lunch is mine.
Sulk and cry but not near me;
I'll be as happy as happy can be.
But maybe I'll share, since you got hurt;
I don't want to be known as a jerk.
I just want to eat, and that I'll do,
And if you're nice, I'll share your lunch with you.